So its been a couple of weeks and I finally got my 2.5stone award - yipee! Down to 13stone 5lb lowest weight since about 2005. I am trying desperately to get down to a real size 14 dress size - I have an awards ceremony to attend for work on the 17 November. Incidentally this is weigh night so I will be missing one, but am going to look for a Friday class that week so I can keep on track.
I really want to look good and don't want to buy a 16 as I will probably not wear it again if I keep losing weight being I am on the cusp of a 14 already, definitely on the bottom, tops are still just a bit tight.
I am going to go shopping tomorrow to the coast outlet shop in York and we will see how it goes, I can't look a mess as I am sitting on a table with the chief exec of the local council and various other senior managers... scary!!
So what else do I have to share, oh my group still doesn't have a new leader, we have about 20 regular weigh-ins at the moment but I don't think we are going to see any real growth until we have some consistency - If I was closer to target I think I would take it on, I know it could be a good one, the audience is out there they just need someone to take them under their wing and get them on track to a better, healthier life.
I have really begun thinking that a career in slimming world might be my next step - I really do believe losing weight with a healthy long term plan is life changing, I wanted to loose weight to look better; but you know what the real benefits -feeling fitter, having more energy and not using my weight as an excuse have been much bigger and more important changes - if I could bottle up the change losing weight has had on my life I think I could make a fortune.
When you are really overweight; when just tying your shoes makes you out of breath, when you loose interest in your life, can't be bothered to do anything around the house and start believing that this is you, this is all you deserve: The idea that you might one day love going to the gym, relish seeing the house clean and shiny - be much happier doing something than just sitting around and actually feel alive again is so unbelievable that you just continue to vegetate and get bigger.
Even after starting to loose weight, the littlest set backs are so hard to overcome when you just don't seem to be able to do anything right, you can make excuses for why you can't loose weight but the only real barrier to a happier you is you, and throughout your journey you will have days like that, days when its easier to say this is me, I can cope with that - but remembering that you already feel better and that you could feel better still if you continue to try is what you should hang on to.
The journey may be long -but its worth it and one day you will look in the mirror and smile - I know one day I will, well at least I might look at myself and not feel the urge to throw something at the mirror.
Here endeth my though for the day|!!
Happy slimming!!
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